When I'm in love with him...

I ignore him.

Hahahas. Yes, I am unbelievably retarded right? Well, it's not my fault! I just have this common fault

 "most guys that I've had a crush on, I pretty much ignored them, or look pissed off when I see them" 

and so... they must think I'm wierd? an Angus person? or they might even think I hate them! And then my hope of gaining their interest is gone foreverrr... Nooo.... Gyah. I don't know... Maybe it's to hide the fact that I'm happy seeing them, or maybe it's a tactic to keep my face the 'norm' colour. Bahahahas... Well, I should learn not to look angry in front of them, and fast! Or else, I might never get a boyfrienddd *SOBS SOBS*

Kay, so I had this guy called my 'store crush'. He would go to my store every afternoon afterschool (this was like a few years back?) and buy a drink, and I'd serve him... WITH AN ANGRY FACE. I didn't treat him as a normal customer, I made effort to frown and not look at him in the eye! Bahahas. To my dismay, he stopped coming to my store altogether *Heartbreak* It was my fault was it not? Nooo...

Kyah, the guy was... Charasmatic? As my friend would say. Bahahahs. Everytime he came in, I'd be like hyperventilating... In the inside. Lmao. He wasn't good looking, he wasn't my ideal style either... But ionos, he was just so... Ahhhhh! Oh! He always had an angry face on too!!! Either angry-looking... Shy? Ionos, I don't think I've seen him smiled at all... Except to his friend, then again, why the hell would he be smiling to me? Bahahahs. Anyways, after he dissappeared from my store, fate brought us back together again and I saw him when I was going to get my L's. BAHAHAHAHS -.- Boy was I in shock! I came in, and he was just thereee... Heart-thud-thud-thud-explode! Why at the L's place? Oh wells, I can't be too picky with my 'store crush'... Anyways, after that incident he came back to my store... But I was seriously in a grumpy mood that time, since was so much customers and I was just going CRAZY... So yeah, I didn't look happy again... Bahahahs, and I really wanted to ask for his name and just be like 'Hey, I saw you at the L's place, guess what? I got my L's' BUT, I didn't have the guts to... BAHAHAHAHS. Sucks. Now I haven't seen him in a long while... Oh wells.

Then the other guy? Hmmm, it's my grade 11 boy! Bahahas... Ionos, everytime I see him, I'd immediately look away and stop smiling :) Maybe it's cause I think he knowsss... Ahhhh... Can't make it too suss you know... Bahahahs. Well yeah, he might think that I hate him.. Which I dontttt!!!! Bahahas, it'll be funny if he actually knows thoughhh.. NO IT WONT! I'd be so embarassed -.-

Kyah, oh wells. Yup, that's a major problem of mine, acting pissy when I'm around a guy that I'm interested in... Ngaw mannn, I'm gonna scare all my boys at this rate!

Bahhhahahahs. Hai Hai, now I must eat my dinner :)

My Grade 11 Loverboy ♥

Hmmm... I totes hope he doesn't come across this page...EVER

Okay, okay, where to start? Let's just say, I knew him from like two years back? Hahas. I doubt he remembers thoughh. Anyways, it was on a Supernova trip when he was told that I said he was pretty. Yup, a pretty boy... Well I think he is! And and and, he reminds me of anime as well... The way he holds his bag... his OLD hairstyle.. and the way he walks! Kyahahahaha. I think that's how I fell in love with him ♥

My dear freinds, I am not stalker. OR PEDO BEAR. just a girl who's INFATUATED with a boy...

Hmm, thinking back... We use to say HI to each other... But somehow we stopped *heartbreak* And then we were just strangers again... He must've thought I was wierd right? Well who knows, anyways... This year... I had the privilege of being in the same class as him. Yes it was a 11/12 class. Bahahas, how I thought I was gonna finally make friends with him again... But noooo, he moved out of my class -.- No it wasn't cause I scared him away okay! Gosh!

So, now I can only see him from afar, since I don't have the guts to go up to him and say hi at all... Bahahahs, I'm a SHY GIRL, unbelievable but true. Anyways, nowadays I get to see him like 3 days a week... Sighs... I'm quite freaky right? *Heartbreak x2* But I'm satisfied with that... I guess... Sadly, there are many past experiences that relate to him... And all of them are not GOOD in anyways shape or form -.-

Past Exp 1: The Oral

I had a Business Oral and I was going fine and all... UNTIL HE WALKED INTO MY CLASS!! Like for god's sake, could the timing not be any better? He made me stumble on my lines *crys* and now not only does he think I'm freaky/wierd, he probs thinks I'm stupid!

Past Exp 2: The Canteen

Okay, this is full wierd. Anyways, so my friend was in the canteen line, like literally in the line, so I couldn't get her to buy me my food... And sooo, being the me that's half retarded... I started screaming and spinning in circles -.- Bahahahs. AND THENNN as I turned 180 degrees, he was sitting right behind me... Staring at me... Giving me the WTF look... Well, like most people, I could've just played it cool and continued my retarded acts, but noooo, I just had to freeze and then run to my friend and hide behind her -.- THE BLOODY SHAME!

Past Exp 3: The Smiling Effect

You know how when you smile at something, but then turn away from that thing, and still smile? Well... That thing got me good. I was smiling at my friend, and for the first time like ever, I stood near the door to make a run for it after lesson was over... And as soon as the teacher said "Class Dismiss", I still had that corny smile plastered across my face... and as I opened the damn door... CHING CHING-- he was standing right there, right bloody in front of me. *SOBS* Again, I could've played it cool... But no... My face turned rigid, and I marched away from him XD After a few steps away from the stampeding crowd of students, I turned back to look for my maths buddies... AND FROM THE CORNER OF MY EYE... I could see him staring at meeeeee.

Past Exp 4: Our first convo?

This is actually not that bad of an experience; all the times I've talked to him is... *DRUM ROLL* This one time when he was still in my class and we had to do group work. Our conversation practically went "You write it" "No you write it" "No my writing is messy" "And mines not?" BAHAHAHAS -.-

Past Exp 5: The other girl

This made my heart literally break. I saw him with another girl... And normally I don't see him walking with a girl, JUST HIM AND HER.... ALONE :'( This was quite unexpected tooo... Like at times when I saw them walking together (like twice?) I kept saying it couldn't possibly bee... But that day when I went with my friend to go print something... They were walking togetherr *Dies*

Past Exp 6: Does he know?

So... I think he found out, and I asked my friend, who was also his friend. Hahahs, connections! Anyways, she was like to me after I asked her, "Yeah I think he might know, cause before when you walked past, this guy came up to him and asked him 'If she was the girl' and he replied as 'The girl from the asian store?." --- Like seriously, what is that supposed to mean? Does he know or what? Hahahs... Actually I can barely remember what my friend told me. BAHAHAHAS. But yeah... I don't knowww.

Past Exp 7: ASSANDBOOBS

ITS ALL MY FRIENDS FAULT... It was one day when I had to walk past his class -.- My friend, being the BIATCH she is kept threatening to push me into him. So I was very careful with when I walked and all up the stairs, cause falling off the stairs is just like so embarassing... Anyways, something happened and I called her an ASSANDBOOB, cause she was just throwing it into the guy's face with what she was wearing to formal, anyways, as a revenge she threw me into the wall -.- RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIS CLASS -.- AND IT MADE A BIG BANG -.- -.- -.- But I didn't die there, the throw just seemed to knock my concience out for awhile, cause as soon as I screamed "ASS AND BOOBS" I ran like the wind-- pass my lover boy. BAHAHAHAHAS... More shame...

Past Exp 8: The add.

Um, and so on one of my super frequent whims of wanting to get to know him more. I found his msn addy and added him. And guess what? He never accepted... BAHAHAHAHAS OUCH OUCH OUCH. So it's either he found it was me so he rejected, or he rejected a random?

Kyah, so now I'm confused... Very confused... Oh these past experiences didn't necessarily happened in that sequence so yeahh. Well back to my confusion, does he know or not? Do you think he knows? What does he think of me then? Wierd? Freak? Retarded? Aiyahhhh... It's hurting my brains!

Well, since my highschool life is ending soon, I shall do something that's worth remembering! And I'm thinking of confessing... My 'crush'... Is the idea appropriate? Is he going to think I'm uber wierd? ARGH... Oh well, I guess one of the pros is that, even if does think I'm wierd... I'll never see him again... right? But then... Ahhh... How I wish he thought the same of me... Sighs Sighs Sighs Cries.

Teehee, that's basically it for my grade 11 loverboy. Geese, one day, I'll look back at this post and smile at my simple mind-- Hahahhs, hai hai, wish me luck for my confession kayss?

Wait, should I do it?

xox

This is my first blog. Aren't you proud of me?

Kyahhhhh... I AM EXCITED DESU ♥

Okay, so I'll just roll out everything that happened todayy. Ahem, well firstly, I've decided I'm going to like Clubs -- YEAH CLUBBING BRAHH -- How the hell did I come to this conclusion? Well, after "listening to Like A G6" --yes, I know it's an old song and all, but give me a break, my cousin only just gave it to me okay? Gosh.-- I was like, dayum this is my soul... & thennn a few hours later, I was all into the whole techno, house, club music... HAHAS Aren't you proud of me? Like I'm finally listening to ENGLISH songs-- Oh Nhi is in shock-- Okay okay, so after this decision... I was listening to ear-popping music to the point of not even rehearsing my oral when it was due today -.-

Yup, and that's my second point... My bloody SHAKESPEAREAN soliloquy. Oh how I weep in silent sorrows. Omfg, where to start? Okay, so like... I threw the bowl --I pray thee, don't ask-- and it was supposed to make a BANG, but nooooo, it had to be like BANG-DANG-DANG-DING -.- Scared the shits out of me! Well yeah, cause of that, I forgot my lines and started cracking up... Oh the shame... 

WELL THAT'S THE LAST ENGLISH ORAL EVER-- CHEYEAHHHH --only an english exam to go... --

And now I'm sore. Because of Contours aka Gymming' Ahh mannn, the instructor made us do so much leg excercisesss... Seriously, I like my legs the way they are... I don't want and leg muscles - kyah the pain -.- And And And, today I didn't feel like passing out like last last week. God, I'm like a tank. JOKEES BRO. Nah, seriously, I wear a jersey of size M and the guys at my school they wear S... I feel like a monster. WAHHHHHHH!!! Gotta be careful of my GUNS ♥

Wahhhhhh (again), I'm like in tremendous pain right now, yet, I am loyal to my blog page... And since today's the first day I'm bloggingg, I shall sacrifice my chemistry study time and B L O G to my hearts content~~

Eh... What else... Oh, today was quite interesting... There was this time when I walked past this corridor place (where my grade 11 loverboy hangs) and I was smiling at my friend... But the thing is... He (My grade 11 Loverboy) was right behind her-- so I hope he doesnt think that I smiled at him... Kyah how embarassing. Like omfg, I KNOW, I'm going to dedicate a BLOG just to my grade 11 loverboy later... sometime :) Ahhhhhh ♥♥♥

Okay... I think I'm done with this blog for today. Adios Amigos ♥
&& Money can't buy me love~