When I'm in love with him...

I ignore him.

Hahahas. Yes, I am unbelievably retarded right? Well, it's not my fault! I just have this common fault

 "most guys that I've had a crush on, I pretty much ignored them, or look pissed off when I see them" 

and so... they must think I'm wierd? an Angus person? or they might even think I hate them! And then my hope of gaining their interest is gone foreverrr... Nooo.... Gyah. I don't know... Maybe it's to hide the fact that I'm happy seeing them, or maybe it's a tactic to keep my face the 'norm' colour. Bahahahas... Well, I should learn not to look angry in front of them, and fast! Or else, I might never get a boyfrienddd *SOBS SOBS*

Kay, so I had this guy called my 'store crush'. He would go to my store every afternoon afterschool (this was like a few years back?) and buy a drink, and I'd serve him... WITH AN ANGRY FACE. I didn't treat him as a normal customer, I made effort to frown and not look at him in the eye! Bahahas. To my dismay, he stopped coming to my store altogether *Heartbreak* It was my fault was it not? Nooo...

Kyah, the guy was... Charasmatic? As my friend would say. Bahahahs. Everytime he came in, I'd be like hyperventilating... In the inside. Lmao. He wasn't good looking, he wasn't my ideal style either... But ionos, he was just so... Ahhhhh! Oh! He always had an angry face on too!!! Either angry-looking... Shy? Ionos, I don't think I've seen him smiled at all... Except to his friend, then again, why the hell would he be smiling to me? Bahahahs. Anyways, after he dissappeared from my store, fate brought us back together again and I saw him when I was going to get my L's. BAHAHAHAHS -.- Boy was I in shock! I came in, and he was just thereee... Heart-thud-thud-thud-explode! Why at the L's place? Oh wells, I can't be too picky with my 'store crush'... Anyways, after that incident he came back to my store... But I was seriously in a grumpy mood that time, since was so much customers and I was just going CRAZY... So yeah, I didn't look happy again... Bahahahs, and I really wanted to ask for his name and just be like 'Hey, I saw you at the L's place, guess what? I got my L's' BUT, I didn't have the guts to... BAHAHAHAHS. Sucks. Now I haven't seen him in a long while... Oh wells.

Then the other guy? Hmmm, it's my grade 11 boy! Bahahas... Ionos, everytime I see him, I'd immediately look away and stop smiling :) Maybe it's cause I think he knowsss... Ahhhh... Can't make it too suss you know... Bahahahs. Well yeah, he might think that I hate him.. Which I dontttt!!!! Bahahas, it'll be funny if he actually knows thoughhh.. NO IT WONT! I'd be so embarassed -.-

Kyah, oh wells. Yup, that's a major problem of mine, acting pissy when I'm around a guy that I'm interested in... Ngaw mannn, I'm gonna scare all my boys at this rate!

Bahhhahahahs. Hai Hai, now I must eat my dinner :)