My Grade 11 Loverboy ♥

Hmmm... I totes hope he doesn't come across this page...EVER

Okay, okay, where to start? Let's just say, I knew him from like two years back? Hahas. I doubt he remembers thoughh. Anyways, it was on a Supernova trip when he was told that I said he was pretty. Yup, a pretty boy... Well I think he is! And and and, he reminds me of anime as well... The way he holds his bag... his OLD hairstyle.. and the way he walks! Kyahahahaha. I think that's how I fell in love with him ♥

My dear freinds, I am not stalker. OR PEDO BEAR. just a girl who's INFATUATED with a boy...

Hmm, thinking back... We use to say HI to each other... But somehow we stopped *heartbreak* And then we were just strangers again... He must've thought I was wierd right? Well who knows, anyways... This year... I had the privilege of being in the same class as him. Yes it was a 11/12 class. Bahahas, how I thought I was gonna finally make friends with him again... But noooo, he moved out of my class -.- No it wasn't cause I scared him away okay! Gosh!

So, now I can only see him from afar, since I don't have the guts to go up to him and say hi at all... Bahahahs, I'm a SHY GIRL, unbelievable but true. Anyways, nowadays I get to see him like 3 days a week... Sighs... I'm quite freaky right? *Heartbreak x2* But I'm satisfied with that... I guess... Sadly, there are many past experiences that relate to him... And all of them are not GOOD in anyways shape or form -.-

Past Exp 1: The Oral

I had a Business Oral and I was going fine and all... UNTIL HE WALKED INTO MY CLASS!! Like for god's sake, could the timing not be any better? He made me stumble on my lines *crys* and now not only does he think I'm freaky/wierd, he probs thinks I'm stupid!

Past Exp 2: The Canteen

Okay, this is full wierd. Anyways, so my friend was in the canteen line, like literally in the line, so I couldn't get her to buy me my food... And sooo, being the me that's half retarded... I started screaming and spinning in circles -.- Bahahahs. AND THENNN as I turned 180 degrees, he was sitting right behind me... Staring at me... Giving me the WTF look... Well, like most people, I could've just played it cool and continued my retarded acts, but noooo, I just had to freeze and then run to my friend and hide behind her -.- THE BLOODY SHAME!

Past Exp 3: The Smiling Effect

You know how when you smile at something, but then turn away from that thing, and still smile? Well... That thing got me good. I was smiling at my friend, and for the first time like ever, I stood near the door to make a run for it after lesson was over... And as soon as the teacher said "Class Dismiss", I still had that corny smile plastered across my face... and as I opened the damn door... CHING CHING-- he was standing right there, right bloody in front of me. *SOBS* Again, I could've played it cool... But no... My face turned rigid, and I marched away from him XD After a few steps away from the stampeding crowd of students, I turned back to look for my maths buddies... AND FROM THE CORNER OF MY EYE... I could see him staring at meeeeee.

Past Exp 4: Our first convo?

This is actually not that bad of an experience; all the times I've talked to him is... *DRUM ROLL* This one time when he was still in my class and we had to do group work. Our conversation practically went "You write it" "No you write it" "No my writing is messy" "And mines not?" BAHAHAHAS -.-

Past Exp 5: The other girl

This made my heart literally break. I saw him with another girl... And normally I don't see him walking with a girl, JUST HIM AND HER.... ALONE :'( This was quite unexpected tooo... Like at times when I saw them walking together (like twice?) I kept saying it couldn't possibly bee... But that day when I went with my friend to go print something... They were walking togetherr *Dies*

Past Exp 6: Does he know?

So... I think he found out, and I asked my friend, who was also his friend. Hahahs, connections! Anyways, she was like to me after I asked her, "Yeah I think he might know, cause before when you walked past, this guy came up to him and asked him 'If she was the girl' and he replied as 'The girl from the asian store?." --- Like seriously, what is that supposed to mean? Does he know or what? Hahahs... Actually I can barely remember what my friend told me. BAHAHAHAS. But yeah... I don't knowww.

Past Exp 7: ASSANDBOOBS

ITS ALL MY FRIENDS FAULT... It was one day when I had to walk past his class -.- My friend, being the BIATCH she is kept threatening to push me into him. So I was very careful with when I walked and all up the stairs, cause falling off the stairs is just like so embarassing... Anyways, something happened and I called her an ASSANDBOOB, cause she was just throwing it into the guy's face with what she was wearing to formal, anyways, as a revenge she threw me into the wall -.- RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIS CLASS -.- AND IT MADE A BIG BANG -.- -.- -.- But I didn't die there, the throw just seemed to knock my concience out for awhile, cause as soon as I screamed "ASS AND BOOBS" I ran like the wind-- pass my lover boy. BAHAHAHAHAS... More shame...

Past Exp 8: The add.

Um, and so on one of my super frequent whims of wanting to get to know him more. I found his msn addy and added him. And guess what? He never accepted... BAHAHAHAHAS OUCH OUCH OUCH. So it's either he found it was me so he rejected, or he rejected a random?

Kyah, so now I'm confused... Very confused... Oh these past experiences didn't necessarily happened in that sequence so yeahh. Well back to my confusion, does he know or not? Do you think he knows? What does he think of me then? Wierd? Freak? Retarded? Aiyahhhh... It's hurting my brains!

Well, since my highschool life is ending soon, I shall do something that's worth remembering! And I'm thinking of confessing... My 'crush'... Is the idea appropriate? Is he going to think I'm uber wierd? ARGH... Oh well, I guess one of the pros is that, even if does think I'm wierd... I'll never see him again... right? But then... Ahhh... How I wish he thought the same of me... Sighs Sighs Sighs Cries.

Teehee, that's basically it for my grade 11 loverboy. Geese, one day, I'll look back at this post and smile at my simple mind-- Hahahhs, hai hai, wish me luck for my confession kayss?

Wait, should I do it?

xox